I let this space go quiet for over a year. It wasn’t on purpose at first. Then it was. I haven’t been on Twitter either for a while, in a similar pattern.
Four years ago this month, my life as I knew it fell apart: at 40 yrs old, I lost my job that I passionately loved, I lost my marriage of 11 years, I lost my home, I lost my financial status, I lost my sense of security and at the same time had to project security for my son while we lived in the upper room of my parents’ house as I scrambled and clawed over the next years to try put my life back together.
Four years later after all that loss, I have gained myself.
I started this blog in the midst of that scramble. Trying to find a way to, as Alexi Murdoch puts it, just breathe. I started strong and went for a while. And then I think the little cracks in my heart just needed some quiet exposure to the oxygen of time. In the last couple of months, I have felt the slow stitching up of those cracks and their gaping holes closed up.
There is a road I’m back on – and I’ve taken my jedi master’s words to heart: Do. Or Do Not. There is No Try.
No matter what life throws at you, you are made of the strongest stuff of the universe, and time IS actually on your side because it is not contained in days or years, but in your heart. You can do this thing, whatever it is. Because on the other side is not the thing. On the other side is you.
I have found myself on the other side of the thing.